It took her years to realise that nobody liked depressed people. Shiny and happy 24/7 was the norm. “Stop being sad,” they said. “Keep yourself busy,” they advised with their lack of knowledge and missing empathy. She tried all this until she found the loved ones who understood the dark cloud that surrounded her.
Smiling on the outside, While braving a storm inside. Faking the happiness, While drowning in hopelessness. Seeking some understanding, While facing the emptiness.
Happy New Year to you all! I'm back to work after allowing myself a couple of weeks to not stress about writing the next book. And I just realised that I must be the only writer online who has NOT written a long post about 2017 achievements and about my goals for 2018. The fact… Continue reading Anxiety & the New Year
Do you know how it feels to be hopeless? To feel as if you have nothing to look forward to and nobody to understand the constant raging storm in your heart? I do. Do you know how it feels to hate yourself and your life and everything around you day after day, month after month,… Continue reading A Few Words on World Suicide Prevention Day
"You are beautiful," her mother tried to make her feel better at home. "You need more confidence," said her brother. She nodded as if she agreed with them. The truth was that she didn't believe her mother and she wanted to laugh at her sibling. She wanted to tell them to put themselves in her… Continue reading Fat Girl
It was her love that held her prisoner. It wasn't anybody else's dreams that stopped her. But what if you woke up one day and realised that your dreams were a living nightmare? And what if you found out that you were the creator of your own misery?
I am no more, Because I have no joy. I am no more, Because I see no hope. I am no more, Even though I breathe.
Do you know how it feels, To have nothing to want? Do you know how it is, To be defeated in love? Do you know how it looks, Inside my broken heart?
She spent a few years on her search. It came to her. But then it disappeared without warning. Her best friend asked her, "What exactly are you looking for?" She couldn't meet her eyes because it was gone. Hope was all she'd had. At that moment, it was gone.
The darkness inside was a sharp contrast to the sunny sky outside. She did her thing, running on auto pilot. It wasn't hard to fake a smile or two. People never bothered her much because they knew she was an introvert. But when she heard laughter, the ugly thoughts made her heart churn painfully. But… Continue reading Inside Outside