Live and Love

Just over 2 weeks ago, I lost somebody who was the centre of my existence. We adopted Goti (canine child) from the street over a decade ago, and life with him was a wonderful journey. He grew up with us, battled tumors, cancer, and the agiing process with us until he couldn’t fight anymore. We had to euthanise him. The house seems empty and I’m missing my long nights with Goti, when I would lie next to him and hug him, cry because I knew time was short, and give him biscuits when he demanded them. I loved taking care of him.

With Goti’s death, my favourite aunt’s death in 2010, and the frequent deaths of my beloved homeless dogs and others around me, my heart has become a cold structure of rock – on most days at least. My rebellious nature kept me in a war with the inevitable Death for a few years. A part of me thought I could fight off the death of my loved ones. I was fooling myself. Now I know that my existing loved ones WILL go. And when they go, and in whatever way, I will have to say – everybody dies. Okay, that last line made me feel like I’ve lost to Death. Ugh. Well, I guess I can just do one thing: live and love like there’s no tomorrow.

 

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4 thoughts on “Live and Love

    • Thank you. I take solace in the fact that Goti lived well and received immense love from myself and my parents. And if he had stayed on the streets, his life would have ended years ago thanks to inhuman car drivers or some other evil gesture.

  1. I remember losing my favorite carand that new emptiness in the house. Loss takes getting used to. And as to getting used to the mere fact that out loved ones will die, I struggle with that dailys I watch my aging mother fade. It doesn’t seem fair. But I guess if we all got to live forever, life would be less precious. Osh, hat sounds like a hallmark card. Anyway, I am of the belief with pets, that is ok to start loving a new one as soon as you can. Helps with the grief, and doesn’t lessen the love for the lost one. My heart goes out to you.

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